Heike Helmert

A Homosexual Jerk


A Homosexual Jerk (praying for acceptance)
 
 
 
My Mother looked in my eyes and told me a few things that are going wrong in my life
 
She told me I’m abnormal, mentallity ill, twisted and confused
 
To embrace me, to show me that she loves me, that’s what she refused
 
In this moment I  was chilled to the bone,
 
I know I’n not perfekt, but I live my life on my own
 
She hindes her profound aversion behind false pretences
 
I try to hinde my dissapointment
 
It’s self defense
 
I ask her if its better to see me down
 
It doesn’t matter to her she’s interested in her own
 
 
 
I’M SORRY I’M NOT PERFECT
 
I’M NOT WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE
 
I’M NOT YOUR SHOWPIECE ANYMORE
 
I’M JUST A HOMOSEXUAL JERK
 
I’M PRAYING FOR ACCEPTANCE
 
 
 
Refrain:
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
It’s drivin’ me insane
 
Please divide the line
 
It’s choking myself in shame
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
I PRAY FOR ACCEPTANCE
 
IN EVERY HOUR, IN EVERY MINUTE AND IN EVERY SECOND OF MY EMBARRASSING LIFE
 
 
 
The deep look into her eyes told me that I’m abhorrend, disgusting, unpleasant, and lazy
 
Her eyes told me that she’s sick with me, that’s crazy
 
I beg to her for showing me that she loves me
 
I beg to her for suffering my way of life
 
 
 
A FUCKIN’ NORMAL HUMAN, BEING HETEROSEXUAL AND STRAIGHT
 
THAT’S WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE
 
SORRY I HAVE TO LET YOU DOWN, THAT ALWAYS EXPECTED PERSON ISN’T ME
 
 
 
Refrain
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
It’s drivin’ me insane
 
Please divide the line
 
It’s choking myself in shame
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
I PRAY FOR ACCEPTANCE EVERY DAY
 
IN EVERY HOUR, IN EVERY MINUTE AND IN EVERY SECOND OF MY EMBARRASSING LIFE
 
 
 
Mom I love you, but you don’t say “I love you too”
 
Mon I need you, but you don’t say “I need you too”
 
Mom I’m satisfied with you, but you don’t say “I’m satisfied with you too”
 
 
 
And when I say “Goodnight” to you, you just say “YES” and not “Goodnight” too
 
 
 
I’M A HOMOSEXUAL JERK, PRAYING FOR ACCEPTANCE
 
OPEN YOUR EYES AND REALIZE
 
I can’t be perfect…   I’m sorry…so sorry…
 
I love you
 
THAT’S WHAT I ALWAYS REGRET
 
 
 
 
 

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Publié sur e-Stories.org sur 25.03.2007.

 
 

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